Okay, I rarely talk about any personal physical issues I experience publicly, but I feel I must share this.
A few weeks ago, I stupidly picked up a super heavy high table chair of ours from the kitchen and moved it to the family room so I could climb up and fix a curtain. (you know where this is going…lol)
Just as I was heaving it into place, I experienced what felt like a snapping of a BIG rubber band in my middle back. I could envision my vertebrae, ligaments and muscles flying apart and then slapping back together! OUCH!!!
It hurt like all get out, but didn’t turn into full blown “can’t move mode” until the next evening. (In a sudden body trauma it’s not unusual for it to take some time for your body to catch up to the reality of it!)
I spent the next three entire days & nights in the recliner while Don slept on the couch. Dogs didn’t know what to do and couldn’t understand why we weren’t going upstairs to go to bed. lol They were all confused!
As a result of “not really thinking this thing through”, I started having excruciating pain, spasms and feeling like I was never going to live without it ever again. I’m not one to run to the doctor right away, so thought I would give it at least a week even though I was begging, “God PLEASE give me some relief!”
There’s a song out there by a gal named Lauren Daigle entitled “Trust in You”. She’s a rising star on the music scene, sharing her faith with millions and is being compared to Adele. The words of this song kept running through my mind.
When challenges, whether physical, emotional, financial or whatever come your way, and you are thinking…”this FEELS like FOREVER”…just TRUST.
Something told me maybe the recliner I was glued to was now contributing to my pain. That made a lot of sense, so I told Don, I’m headed upstairs and I’m going to try to get comfortable and maybe we can both get a really good night’s sleep tonight.
So, I warmed up our bed, crawled in and it was like heaven! Oh my! It felt sooooo good! I thought I may have to lie in one position all night, but that’s okay!
I awoke the next morning feeling like I had turned a page! The mountain I was asking God to move just did! The waters I needed Him to part…just did! I know this may sound melodramatic, but when you are in constant pain, it has a way of teaching you…”you, my dear are NOT in control!”.
If you’ve been following me on this blog, Ladybug Junction Farm, and know our extreme desire to open up to the community in “bringing animals, kids & adults together in friendship thru reading, learning & the love of BOOKS” at our upcoming big red reading barn…then you can probably understand that when I was incapacitated, I was seriously doubting my ability to follow thru on that dream.
I was unable to care for the six animals we have right now, let alone a herd of animals we were planning to have!
But if God has a plan, He can bring it about!
“When He guides, He provides.” Isaiah 58:11
I learned a few lessons this week: When unexpected challenges come your way…
1. Stop what you are doing and rest into it
2. Ask for guidance
When I doubted everything, all of our plans and our ability to bring it about…the lesson came through loud and clear in the words…”You’re right!”
If God has called you for something, YOU will not bring it about. He will!
Stop striving, stop planning, stop doing it all yourself!
You have a Project Manager who is better than anyone you could hire to bring this farm to reality! Trust Him!
I also learned that if God changes our plans, it will be for our own good and I’m okay with that.
I recently decided to read the Bible in it’s entirety which I have never done. There is a whole story backing up my decision to do that, but we will save that for another post. But…As I was lying flat on my back, in pain and I was thinking of people who have been called by God to do remarkable things but doubted at first…
- Noah (building a boat for something called a flood, which the people of that day had never seen before..awkward!),
- Moses (leading a multitude of people with no experience in public speaking or communication skills…),
- David (a small boy with a few pebbles and a slingshot against a giant with armor and a sword),
- John the Baptist’s parents (who were told at the ripe old age of their 90’s they were to have a son…no way!)
God called them, they didn’t believe it. But they answered and He provided.
If God has a plan for you, HE will bring you through it, in His own timing and in His own way. Trust in Him!
Check out Lauren Daigle’s Channel on Youtube! You just may see a way to Trust Him in what you are being called to do!
Sometimes God puts you on your back so you can LOOK UP and TRUST!
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