A New Perspective…
I had plans for the future. My plans for Ladybug Junction Farm were massive;
requiring a lot of capital, dedication and manpower to bring it about.
While listening to their story of how God led them to the show and Magnolia,
out of the blue this thought came to me, “…the farm was never meant to be without Me.”
Meaning…the farm was never meant to be without God…His plans…His will.
I realized in that moment, it was all about what I wanted, what I needed to “manifest”…the farm of my dreams.
My heart was broken. I was tired of the striving with the obstacles.
I just knew the reason I had struggled in my quest to make the farm a reality was because…I had left God out of my plans.
God had a different plan.
Proverbs 16:9 says…”We can make our plans but the Lord determines our steps”. That very day, I turned the farm completely over to Him.
I stopped everything I was doing for the farm and asked God to share His plan with me.
If the farm was not in our future, take away my desire for it.
There is a song sung by Amy Grant; written by Chris Christian, Brown Bannister and Amy Grant.
It’s called “So Glad” and you can find the full lyrics HERE. The words to this song touched my heart. Maybe it will resonate with you too.
I had laid some mighty plans,
Thought I held them in my hands.
Then my world began to crumble all away.
I tried to build it back again;
I couldn’t bear to see it end,
How it hurt to know You wanted it that way.
And I’m so glad,
Glad to find the reason,
That I’m happy-sad
That You’ve torn it all away,
And I’m so glad,
Though it hurts to know I’m leaving
Everything I ever thought that I would be.
Once I held it in my hand.
It was a kingdom made of sand.
But now You’ve blown it all away.
I can’t believe that I can say,
That I’m glad.
Long before my plans were made,
I know a master plan was laid,
With a power that superseded my control.
And if that truth could pierce my heart,
I wouldn’t wander from the start,
Trying desperately to make it on my own.
As of this writing, Ladybug Junction Farm has been put aside.
Although I still yearn for a country property and barn…and maybe a few critters running around,
the massive enterprise I was trying to build…is not an obsession anymore.
God always answers. Somtimes it’s yes, sometimes it’s no, sometimes it’s wait.
No matter what the answer, His will is always the best thing for me.
I trust Him completely.