Anyone close to me knows I am a private person. I don’t share a lot about what is deep in my heart. But…something happened this week I want to share with you. So, this is me, opening myself from my heart to yours.
I’ve been really overwhelmed with 2020 and all it entails; especially on social media.
“Covid is bad- Covid is not as bad as they say, job loss-filing for unemployment, masks-no masks, vaccines-no vaccines, lockdown-no lockdown, open businesses-shut down businesses, open schools-close schools, changes in how we live, how we buy groceries or anything else we need, seeing family/friends-to not seeing family/friends, hugs-no hugs, face to face-use zoom, misinformation, disinformation, truth or lies,”…and the list goes on and on. How can anyone sort all this out? Who has that kind of energy?
I literally soak up the range of emotions running high from one side to the other and I empathize with those suffering. I love social media, but sometimes it is more than I can bear.
I woke up out of a sound sleep one night totally overwhelmed with it all, causing me to retreat to the closet space in our guest room. [if you don’t know about the closet space, go here to learn more] The next day I needed a nap and snuggled up in the middle of the afternoon in my warm cozy blankets for a couple of hours. Ahh, just what I needed.
Later, Don asked if I had a good nap; I said, “I did!”
He replied, “That’s good. You needed it. You can’t deal with life when you’re tired.”
Tears welled up in my eyes and I wondered if he knew the reason I needed the nap.
I asked him what he meant by that and he replied, “being depressed”. I said, “How did you know I was depressed?”
He replied, “I know when you’re depressed” and then the tears flowed again.
In that moment:
I felt loved
I felt seen
I felt heard
Instead of pushing through with “I can handle it”, “I have to do more research”, “I have to figure it all out”, “I need to find the truth”…I actually heard the words of Christ, in Don’s reply.
“I love you, I see you, I hear you.”
“…Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows.
But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
God is in control. Nothing happens that He is not aware. Let go of the world, its suffering and trials and cuddle up with your Creator, believing He cares for you;
“when you could use a hug and to know that someone cares.”